Give Me Just Enough

I've gotta admit that I was a bit convicted today.  I uploaded my blog to a printing website in hopes of printing the last year and a half of my posts as a memory book for Daisy.  As I was previewing the last year and a half of posts I have written I was convicted about how many more of my posts expressed my deep love for Jesus and what he was teaching me before Daisy was born and I noticed that as the last 15 months with my daughter have quickly rolled by and this season with my hubby has been so tiring that I have withdrawn from sharing what is on my heart or sharing what the Lord has been teaching me.  I have no excuses and in fact I am sure I know the reason for the lull....I am not pressing in to the Lord and His word as much as I could be...not even as much as I want to be.  So, tonight before I did anything else I sought the Lord.  I started reading passages from the New Testament but, kept getting so distracted for some reason.  I hate when my mind does that.  So then I decided to look up Francis Chan (my favorite Pastor to watch online) to watch some clips from his sermons.  Sometimes listening to the word in a lesson format brings it to life for me and helps me to visualize it better.  Not always, but sometimes and this evening that was the case.

The video below and passage of scripture in the picture above are what really stuck with me after my devotional time tonight.  The reason it stood out so much is that my mom had just quoted this passage of scripture to me when she was visiting.  She had been so passionate when she talked about these verses with me and I remember her passion.  I love when God's kids get passionate about His word!

 So here was the first point I had to chew on as I read the passage from Proverbs: I don't want to be a liar or a teller of falsehoods.  I know many people tell lies and falsehoods so regularly that they don't even recognize them as lies anymore.  I could very, very easily fall prey to this as it is a pretty "normal" practice in this day and age....a little tall tale here, a white lie there and before we know it it's just the way we talk.  These falsehoods get us out of things we don't want to have to do or people we just can't be honest with.  In a lot of ways lying is easier than telling the truth on many occasions.  Lies get us off the hook and allow us to escape responsibility.  But, let's face it...don't we all appreciate honesty...loving honesty preferably, in people that we call our friends?  Honest people are so refreshing, real and trustable....(evidently trustable isn't a word but, I'm making it one tonight!) 

I long to be that person to my friends, family, employers, IRS (eekk) and government, etc. I long to stand before the Lord someday in that long judgement line that we will all stand in and to be able to hear him say, "Well done good and faithful servant.  Well done."  I don't want him to have a list of all the times that I lied and told falsehoods.  I would be mortified!  He knows all that I do and He sees all that I do, so I would not be getting away with anything anyways; maybe temporarily but, not indefinitely.  I am accountable to Him.  I will never be perfect here no Earth.  None of us will be perfect here but, I certainly strive to be more like Jesus.  Who better to emulate than the one who was without sin? No other example is stable in this world of daily changing views. 

And the second point to chew on from this passage is the shattering reality that if God were to give me just enough for each day, that would be the best thing for me!!  Wow! That goes against everything we are taught to believe in this world.  We always want more than enough and that is probably because we never think we have enough to begin with.  If I only made a little more I could get out of this debt, buy that boat or go on that vacation but, we all know it is never enough.  If only I had a little more I would give it all away to the poor...ehem,  yah right, and then I would save the last million to live off of and never have another care as long as I lived.  BUT, therein lies the problem...if we have too much we have that mindset of, "I have more than enough money to live and die comfortably, I don't need God because I can take care of myself."  And on the other hand if I have too little and I am starving or living on the streets I might do reckless things like steal or kill to acquire what we need.  Just enough.  God give me just enough for today.  As Francis says in the video I attached...I dare you to pray this...do you realize how true this passage is???  IT is SO true but, not easy to chew on because if we are really honest with ourselves...we don't want to have to rely soley on God daily for all that we need because that requires us to trust him implicitly and not trust in our own resources and that is scary. We must relinquish our control...again, scary!  That means I have to learn how to worry less and trust the Lord to take care of everything.  Wait, isn't that what I am supposed to be doing anyways??  hmmmmm...It all comes around full circle and it was a nice wake up call.  Have you ever read this passage before and really dissected it? What are your thoughts?  I'd love to hear....


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Proverbs 30: 7-9

⁷ “Two things I ask of you, LORD;
   do not refuse me before I die:
⁸ Keep falsehood and lies far from me;
   give me neither poverty nor riches,
   but give me only my daily bread.
⁹ Otherwise, I may have too much and disown you
   and say, ‘Who is the LORD?’
Or I may become poor and steal,
   and so dishonor the name of my God.