Time To Resign

absolutely love these pictures of Daisy. She is so fun to photograph. So many faces and I love them all..I mean of course what's not to love, she is my child after all. :-) Love my pink pearl Princess!




Now that the news is out at my work I can officially share with you all that I have put in my two weeks notice at my job. I've worked for a Christian book publishing company for the past 7 years and in so many ways I will really miss this job as well as the wonderful people I have worked with. I worked inside the office for 4 years in California where the headquarters is stationed and then when we moved to North Carolina my company offered to keep me on a temporary basis and let me work out of my home which was a big treat! Then over time I became permanent again and this past September marked my 7th year with the company. I oversee about 11 states on the East Coast. I have handled orders, sales, customer service, territory management and new business growth. It has been such a blessing to be able to work out of my home and often times I didn'teven bother getting dressed (shhhh, I know you are jealous!). I have sipped my coffee and sat at my desk in my slippers and looked outside my window every day for the past few years and never once regretted my job. I would say I'm a lucky gal but, luck really has nothing to do with it. I am a blessed gal. God has taken great care of me and my family and has always provided for us.

The past 7 months (almost seven months) since we've had Daisy have been a tremendous strain for me. She still wakes up a few times a night. She does go back to sleep but, I have to get up to calm her down and this has worn me ragged night after night. On top of being exhausted I've had to work a full time shift and then get off to a feisty baby until late and night and then the cycle repeats itself. I know all you mamas have your plates super full so I'm not asking for a violin, just sharing my story. The icing on the cake for us has been our flaky nanny situation. We've been through 4-5 nanny gals in the past 7 months and it has been SO challenging to find a new one each time one bailed on us. I really do have the best of both worlds having an in home job and getting to see my baby periodically throughout the day so the last thing I wanted was to forfeit my job this soon but, after losing our last nanny I have not been able to find a replacement and with the help of friends and family I've been able to continue working but only temporarily. I feel like sometimes God closes doors for a reason. I would keep my work door open longer if I could because financially it is essential and it is comfortable for us but, God has His reasons. He knows how exhausted I am; He's heard my cries for help and sometimes it takes shutting the doors we want open to show us a different way. No, not the timing I expected and yes, this will be extremely challenging for us but, is God big enough to handle this change in our lives, again, yes.

So am I giddy and elated that I get to be a stay at home mom? Yes and no but, I am not ungrateful so please don't misinterpret my honesty. My head is reeling at the thought of the huge income loss we will be faced with in two short weeks so it's hard to be giddy and jump up and down and clap my hands. I'm nervous and fearful on one hand about how to make this work but, on the other hand I'm at peace and feel strong because God is faithful and has never failed us and I just know 100% that it will work out. God will provide and leave us with no one but, Him to praise for working this out and though this won't be an easy change it is worth it and I feel very blessed to be able to take this step! I might have to become a coupon loving mama (ug, I've never wanted to deal with coupons. So not my thing) but, whatever I can do to be wise with what we have I will learn to do! I know a lot of you mamas who stop by our blog are stay at home moms living on one tight income. What has been your biggest money saver and what things do you do to cut back?

Taking a step of faith in any area of life is seldom ever easy but, always worth it! We welcome your prayers as we change course. Prayer that I would fall into my role as stay at home mom with joy and grace. Prayer that Joey would not feel over burdened by carrying us financially on his own. Prayer that my photography business picks up in time so I can assist with the bills and prayer that we learn to be good stewards with our money. What an adventure we are about to embark on!! EEEEEEEEEEEEE hahaha