3 hours ago
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
I've been having a couple of extra challenging weeks with my passionate 2 year old. She has been testing me with incessant tantrums, potty training failure and nap resistance. Basically she has all but, turned into a new human being and quite frankly I am missing the pleasant child that I gave up my job to stay home with. teehee.
It is in the challenging seasons of life that we often get more discouraged and question our abilities (or in my situation my parenting skills). Am I disciplining her right? Am I doing enough to bring out the best in her? Am I loving her enough? How come she doesn't know how to read Shakespeare yet like those other two year olds? Am I patient enough? Have I been teaching her enough about Jesus? Why is she dead set on chucking a block at that kid's head every time they want to play with her? Is TV frying her brain? Or perhaps the TV should be on more often so that I take breaks from her craziness? Does she get enough play dates...or maybe she is getting too many play dates? Blah Blah blahgity blah. And no, blahgity is not a word. I am fond of making up new words from time to time. Thank you for wondering. ;)
I put my little one down for her nap today and took my ever growing angst to the Lord in prayer. God is always so faithful to realign my thoughts in truth and calm the stormy waters in my soul. After meeting with Him in prayer I'm left with peace. I also become keenly aware of the fact that I am so glad that I am not God. I can't imagine having billions of whiny adults driving me crazy all day (and fortunately we don't drive Him crazy)! One whiny two year old is more than enough. I am also reminded of how patient my Father in Heaven is with me and with all of His kids and I am so thankful for such a perfect parenting example. The more I look to Him for parenting advice (or life advice) the more the chaos to the right and to the left of me begin to fade. I know I don't have to have it all figured out. Sometimes I just need the big guy upstairs to remind me that He has already taken care of it all and I can rest in His peace.
Side note: I am totally aware that the 2's and 3's and 4's and 15's are all full of new challenges and drama. My little girl is behaving right on cue for a 2 year old. Ultimately, I am the one trying to learn how to behave as my child's behavior will ever be changing. Thanks for supporting me in this wild journey called parenthood!