Friday, March 11, 2011

Good Emotional

I'm emotional tonight. I feel like this is a good emotional though. The hubby and I just spent an hour reading different passages in the bible together. We read from 2 Timothy, Psalms and Romans and then we had a powerful time of prayer together. Yah, that combination always makes me feel emotional, spiritually and mentally emotional in a good, raw, humbled kind of way.

My hubby has had an ongoing and lengthy battle with various physical and mental health issues. He has been going through the ringer for well over a year now. It's been a long, tough road for him and for me too in all honesty. Being sick for a week or two is hard enough on anyone but, for months, for years, well, it wears on a person and on a family. I am SO proud of my husband. He has a stronger walk with the Lord now than he has in a long time. He is determined to get through this and he keeps chugging along in spite of so much weighing him down. We have been together for over 11 years now and I am more in love with my husband now than I ever have been. I'm so grateful that in spite of what he is going through he isn't shutting me out. Quite the contrary he has leaned on me and confided in me every step of the way. I feel so blessed that our bond is deepening in spite of the enemies efforts to divide and destroy. I am SO thankful that we know the ONE who gives the peace that passes all understanding. A lot of people might not know how to endure a long season of hardship and stay in tact and strong but, the Lord is our strength. A lot of people might lose hope or lose heart, but the Lord is our rock and our foundation who holds us steady. A lot of people might become bitter or lash out but, the Lord has shown himself faithful and we trust Him and know He will see us through as He always has. The Lord is good. This has been a long, hard season, one of which many people who know us are not even really aware of because there really isn't much to say and why make people feel uncomfortable if you don't have to right. Not to mention we don't want people making assumptions or taking things out of context so we have hesitated to share, but we also believe in keeping it real and letting the Lord be glorified in and through us in and out of season! It's awkward to feel so vulnerable but, that just means that the Lord can do more refining. I'm here Lord. Teach me and lead me. Let my eyes be open and my heart be soft to receive what you are showing me in this season. I love you my Lord, my God. You are good God. You are so good to me.

37 "No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,a]">[a] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8: 37-39


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12 comments:

  1. I love this Casey. I needed this tonight. I had been so upset about Monday, but found peace today. I know that everything happens for a reason. I am praying for your hubby and you.

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  2. "I'm so grateful that in spite of what he is going through he isn't shutting me out. Quite the contrary he has leaned on me and confided in me every step of the way. I feel so blessed that our bond is deepening in spite of the enemies efforts to divide and destroy. I am SO thankful that we know the ONE who gives the peace that passes all understanding."

    Amen!!!!!

    Thanks for sharing this. I appreciate the insight, the honesty, the trust, and hope you have in the LORD!!

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  3. Praying for you and your hubby - thank you for sharing a small piece of your heart.

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  4. Thank you for your honesty and transparency. It's so refreshing to read about marriages that are REAL and admit to the hardship. How proud you must be of your husband for persevering through the hard times. Sending prayers to both of you as you continue on this journey! I know God has great things in store for you both!

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  5. You and your husband are such an inspiration. This post is full of beautiful writing and honesty. I love that. Praying for both of y'all!

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  6. So encouraging and so inspiring. THANk you for this awesome post:)

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  7. To be honest Casey, I have been worried about you and how things are going. I do know that you guys are one of the strongest couples in the Lord that we have ever met...therefore I shouldn't worry. I hope that writing that and being transparent was helpful for you because now you have SOOO many people praying for you and you know how powerful prayer is. God is faithful and will bring you two out of this season and I pray that he lets you see the reasons behind it. Love you Casey and Joe!

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  8. Wow you guys have been going through a lot! So wonderful to see a couple coming together in times of great adversity. thanks for sharing Casey! Sounds like you are a tremendous wife!

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  9. That is absolutely my all time favorite verse. I memorized it in high school and have spent the last 15 years quoting it to myself in various situations. God IS good and He WILL be glorified through this and both of you will come out on the other side stronger. I'm so happy to hear that in spite of your hardships (which I totally believe the devil tries to take advantage of) you have grown closer to Christ and in turn closer to each other. That is a huge testament to your faith. Please know that you and your hubs are in my prayers and if I can pray more specifically, please let me know.

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  10. I so appreciate reading this post. I want to say that I am impressed with your support of your husband and faith in the Lord. I think that the enemy can have only as much power over us as we give him. Keeping things in the dark I have always believed gives him strength, because that is where our doubts live and he loves to deceive us and amplify those doubts..
    I believe God will take you guys and bring you out victorious as you continue to keep him as your focus. Your family is beautiful and real. Keep up the good fight it is inspirational to many reading your blog.
    God bless you and your family.

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  11. i love this. inspirational

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  12. He is so blessed to have a woman to stand by his side as you do Casey. Our men need our support and love. It looks like Jesus is coming thru as He does and taking care of you. Your focus is right where is should be...

    Love to you, Marlece

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