"I'm gonna dance in this rain. I'm gonna praise you in this rain. I'm gonna grow in this rain."
Some that know me well and know my heart in this challenging season, know that I have chosen not to get angry with God or to question why He has let these hardships rain on our family. I don't say that vainly or in pride but, just to share where I am at and what I am learning. It doesn't take being a rocket scientist to realize that life is hard and that we all experience good times and bad. It does however; seem to be more challenging for most people to be "happy" with God when the bad times inevitably fall on them. For the record I totally understand that attitude choice also but, at this point in my life I am not in that place. One scripture that I often quote to myself in this season is, "That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust." Matthew 5:45
It rains on us all, both the good and evil. We will all face loss, pain, persecution of some kind, trial, illness, heartbreak etc.while on this Earth. It simply cannot be avoided or escaped. Just because I am a child of the most High God or just because a person thinks they are "good" doesn't disqualify them from going through the rain. The fact is that just as literal rain brings growth to the Earth below...so too do the rains in our lives help us to grow in one way or another as well! We will not know perfect peace or total freedom from pain and sorrow until we stand before Jesus in Heaven. I think coming to terms with these facts, like really, truly understanding all this deep in my core, has given me a tremendous amount peace. The kind of peace that I know only God can give. Here is where I'm at...I am here on Earth for a short season so I need to make the most of it and I want to bring glory to my Father in Heaven. Life isn't all about me and living for myself will leave me feeling empty...I know because I've lived that way before. I'm here for to bring God glory because He is SO worthy even when the rain is pouring down. My current circumstances are very trying and I cannot escape them but, I love the Lord with all my heart and I am waiting on Him and trying to learn and be molded as this trial rages on. Rebelling from God won't make me feel any better but, surrendering what is outside of my control to the one whose ways are higher than mine feels very freeing to me. I can't fix my husband or his health or our finances. I can't fix my heavy heart or magically make everything all right, but I can lean on the Lord's word for comfort and strength. I can cry out to Him and be affirmed by his truth. I will accept this rain and choose to humbly accept what it brings even when it hurts.
This is the scripture the Lord encouraged me with this week:
- Some more inspirational quotes that go wonderfully with this post -
* "One thing we may be sure of, however: For the believer all pain has meaning; all adversity is profitable. There is no question that adversity is difficult. It usually takes us by surprise and seems to strike where we are most vulnerable. To us it often appears completely senseless and irrational, but to God none of it is either senseless or irrational. He has a purpose in every pain He brings or allows in our lives. We can be sure that in some way He intends it for our profit and His glory."
* "I will trust Him. Whatever, wherever I am, I can never be thrown away. If I am in sickness, my sickness may serve Him; in perplexity, my perplexity may serve Him; if I am in sorrow, my sorrow may serve Him. My sickness, or perplexity, or sorrow may be necessary causes of some great end, which is quite beyond us. He does nothing in vain."
-John Henry Newman
* "So many times we say that we can't serve God because we aren't whatever is needed. We're not talented enough or smart enough or whatever. But if you are in covenant with Jesus Christ, He is responsible for covering your weaknesses, for being your strength. He will give you His abilities for your disabilities!"
* "Our vision is so limited we can hardly imagine a love that does not show itself in protection from suffering.... The love of God did not protect His own Son.... He will not necessarily protect us - not from anything it takes to make us like His Son. A lot of hammering and chiseling and purifying by fire will have to go into the process."